That’s the living amends in a nutshell, right?  Show, don’t tell.  Everyone has grown extremely tired of the telling; now they need to see some concrete action over an extended period of time.

Step 12: having had a spiritual awakening as the result of these steps, we tried to carry this message to alcoholics, and to practice these principles in all our affairs.

Step Twelve is the showing step, I believe:  Practice these principles in all our affairs.  This is the daily unveiling of the new me, made just for today, living just in this time and just in this moment.

Practice for me starts in solitude first thing in the morning, before my insane thoughts can take proper root.  Quiet time for prayer, meditation, readings and affirmations needs to be mandatory if I’m to have any chance of walking through the front door right-sized.   Positive habits beget positive actions.  I must revisit my resolve throughout the day, attend meetings and work with other alcoholics.  It’s this me:  the different me, the more positive me, the less reactive me, the me I’d like to become someday, that is the end product of doing these things daily, habitually.

But I must always remember:  acting is much different from showing.  Showing happens without me knowing it; it’s the invisible miracle that I only find out about much later.  Acting is just like telling, only I use my arms.  I’m aware when I’m acting, when I’m telling, when I’m just putting on a show.

Today, thanks to this program, I can feel when I’m flapping my arms, and I know when I’m flapping my gums.
And for that, I’m grateful.

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