Apologies for the 10-day hiatus. Nothing bad happened. I’ve been working a lot lately, which is good; not turning anything away and racking up the billable hours. I’m still hitting my meetings, though I’ve missed a few recently, and taking time for myself at least once a day, if not first thing in the morning. Here and there; you know, nothing too regular. What you might call scatter shot. There’s just say there’s been a definite dip in spiritual attendance to myself and my surroundings.
Step Two: came to believe that a Power greater than ourselves could restore us to sanity.
How quickly I will throw away time-proven patterns of success when something I deem to be truly important, like work and money, come along. What an honorable reason to go myopic! I revert back to the me-first attitude, under the guise that I am doing it for my employer, my family, my country. I’ll return to my normally scheduled serenity once all this other stuff dies down.
Why I think life is a series of fits and starts, where one thing must stop for another to begin, is beyond me.
What I think it might actually be: everything moving together all at once. And when I start pushing or pulling or steering or controlling, that’s when things get all bunched-up down at the head office.
First things first. Always make time, especially when I don’t feel like I can afford to.
There’s an old zen saying
You should sit in meditation for 20 minutes a day, unless you don’t have time to.
Then you should sit for an hour.
wonderful! thanks for the comment – can always use less clinging!
Thanks for the restart. Don’t be too hard on yourself, life always finds a way to intervene. Can’t remember the exact quote but something to the effect that “smooth sailing never made a good sailor”. We can learn from this too.