This step has always felt like I needed to get dressed up all fancy-like; that this was an official request, requiring appropriate attire.

Step 7:  humbly asked Him to remove our shortcomings.

Truth be told, I’ve read too many comic books.  For me, this step needs to be full of pomp and circumstance and formalities and bowing from the waist.  And I need to be no-nonsense and humble in my request:  head down, eyes down.  Then and only then will I be afforded the kindness of a clean slate.

All sparkly and new, I re-engage with the rest of the world, only to find that the sparkle and newness can wear off incredibly fast.  But I thought my shortcomings were removed?  Was I not sincere enough?  So completely humble that it became prideful?  Or was I simply not ready to have them removed?  Now I feel like a fool, having bothered my higher power with something he knew I couldn’t deal with.

But, as per usual, I’m somewhat missing the point. The seven step isn’t absolution – absolution is for the past.  This step makes a lot more sense when I am doing it on a daily basis, preferably first thing in the morning.  This entire program is based around the concept of one day at a time.  So why do I think my shortcomings could be dealt with once and for all, removed like a benign cyst.

There’s no endgame here, no finish line, no over-and-outs.  There’s just today, and that’s all the Seventh Step Prayer is asking for in the first place.  I’m not asking to be made infallible.  I’m asking to get out of my own way and become a positive force for those around me.

Seventh Step Prayer
My Creator,  I am now willing that you should have all of me, good & bad.  I pray that you now remove from me every single defect of character which stands in the way of my usefulness to you & my fellows. Grant me strength, as I go out from here to do Your bidding.

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