For me to know that the program is working, I need to actively let go and let God. It can’t simply be an acknowledgment; a quick prayer followed by a skimming over of some literature is the equivalent to mental lip service. It’s like subscribing to a newspaper that I never read. It’s not enough to let them pile up at the end of the driveway.
Step 3: made a decision to turn our will and our lives over to the care of God, as we understood Him.
What I really need doesn’t exist: a supercomputer chair that locks me down and won’t trigger my release until it registers an actual, physiological change in my heart and thinking. It could be called the Willingness Chair.
Want to know how I know when I’m working in the program? I can feel it working in the moment, because I’m devoting time to it.
Whenever I perceive growth I immediately want to cut back on my efforts. I’m getting better, so why keep doing what I was doing, when doing less might do the trick as well? That’s how I can tell I’m defeating my alcoholism: because paying less attention to it must mean I’m improving. I don’t need to walk the dog this morning; I took him to the park last weekend.
Cutting out old, destructive habits is less than half the battle. It’s finding and filling the days with new, constructive actions that’s key to my sobriety and serenity.
Today and every morning: Sit and read the 3rd Step Prayer aloud as part of a morning ritual that includes action and time.
And remember: Don’t get out of the chair until I’ve gotten out of my way. Stand up with a new vision for the day.
The Third Step Prayer
God, I offer myself to Thee-
To build with me and to do with me as Thou wilt.
Relieve me of the bondage of self, that I may better do Thy will.
Take away my difficulties, that victory over them may bear witness
to those I would help of Thy Power, Thy Love, and Thy Way of life.
May I do Thy will always!