I don’t like being humble. Because even when I try to be humble, I tend to wrap it up in pride, and there’s nothing more ridiculous than someone being boastful about their humility. It’s really tough, maintaining that balance between rock star and piece of crap.
Step 7: humbly asked Him to remove our shortcomings.
When I think it’s working, when I think I’m being humble, it’s a lot like not mentioning a no-hitter while it’s happening. Everyone’s somewhat aware of the miracle that the program is showing, but to say it out loud seems like bad mojo. It must have something to do with the short walk between turning everything over and taking everything back.
On the good days, there can definitely be a feeling of “oh, so this is how it’s supposed to work”. It comes to me without knowing, without struggle. Which is all well and good, but the next morning when I’ll not automatically feeling it, I can’t be quick to question what’s wrong with the program, or what’s wrong with me. These are the ebbs and flows of the human experience. And after spending years swimming with and against the current, it’s finally been shown to me that I can simply turn over and float.
Today: Be grateful for the knowledge.