Before this program, I didn’t understand the importance of beginnings and endings. I hated going to sleep because tomorrows followed, and once awake I’d immediately jump into overdrive, confusing my alarm clock with a jailbreak.
There was never a lapse in the mental action, never a moment of reflection; only the constant running from and running to.
Step 11: sought through prayer and meditation to improve our conscious contact with God as we understood Him, praying only for knowledge of His will for us and the power to carry that out.
As a kid who grew up saying his prayers before going to bed, it still feels odd to pray in the morning. I mean, I haven’t done anything yet. And isn’t that the way I look at my higher power; as a reaction, an after-the-fact notion? It’s the fundamental way I’ve always thought about my Lord and Savior: to be used sparingly, and only when absolutely necessary. I always just assumed that he was extremely busy in his workshop.
But how do I know if I’ve done a good job at the end of the day, if I’ve got no instructions at the start? That’s why it’s crucial that I kneel down and check in and listen each morning. This is where growth begins. It’s not all about eschewing bad behavior. It’s where positive actions are put into place, where my will is turned over. Who knew my mind and my priorities demanded so much attention immediately upon waking?
Today and every day: Be grateful for what I’ve learned. Be humble enough to continually take action.