Regardless of whatever I’m currently doing, I generally want to be doing something else. Even when I’m doing fun stuff.
Step 3: made a decision to turn our will and our lives over to the care of God, as we understood Him.
I’m hanging out with Step Three because there’s an awful lot of letting go that needs to be done at my office today. A ridiculous deadline. Constant meetings. Superfluous revisions. It’s a sticky wicket; trying to decide the things I can change within a very short time frame. It’s even harder not to blow up and storm out, expletives flying and middle fingers ablaze.
What I’m doing about it today: this is going to be a short blog, as I plan on working well into the night. Everything is due tomorrow morning at 10 a.m. So I took a mini-lunch, drove to a quiet spot under a tree, and did some meditation. I listened to my breathing, and after five minutes, asked my higher power to take over. All I need to do is the next right thing, until it’s time to go home, whenever that might be. It’s out of my hands; quit trying to grab hold of it and wrestle it to the ground.
Be cooperative, friendly, and helpful. Nobody in that office is trying to make me mad. They’re just looking to get a presentation out the door extremely fast in an extremely short amount of time.
Today: join the group, don’t clobber it.
Wednesday Night Update: It’s almost 9:00 p.m., and I was able to hold it together today! No blow ups, no endless complaining. I think I even threw in an “it is what it is” for good measure.