My days stay miserable as long as I find something unacceptable. Whether that’s through misinterpretation, or poor assumptions, or visual/audio misreads, the second I start expecting something, I’m going to become hugely disappointed. And depressed. And resentful. And angry.
What I need to be is over with it. This very well may be one of those “courage to change the things I can” things. Maybe living with an undefined goal isn’t the smartest way to go through life.
Step 3: made a decision to turn our will and our lives over to the care of God, as we understood Him.
Nothing happens in my time. It’s God’s time frame, as well as everyone else’s; I just need to sit back and wait. For what I’m not sure. In the meantime, it becomes a fair question to ask if the wait’s going to be worth it, or just another serious of headaches and letdowns. Which then begs the question: do I really want what I think I want?
Remember, if I keep doing what I’ve always done, I’ll always get what I’ve always got. To that end, I will stop trying to make things happen. Mainly because I no longer know what I want to happen. Once I truly know, then I need to find the courage to act. Which, if done with a clear heart and a right-sized head, should be, if not pleasant, at least doable.
Nobody said untangling was easy. Knowing when to set the knotted ball of twine down is even harder.
