Nothing keeps an alcoholic down quite like paperwork. Columns and rows, failures and resentments. Loose leaf paper with staples. This step sucks doubly hard, since I needed to be fearless without liquid courage.

Step 4: Made a searching and fearless moral inventory of ourselves.

One of the most important things to remember about this inventory stuff is that searching and fearless does not equal mean and unfair. Hey, I’m trying to get things right-sized. That includes proper perspective on myself. Going from giant to microscopic isn’t impressing anyone. It’s just another form of overdoing it. Besides, they’ll be plenty of time for self-punishment later.

The first time through Step 4, I grabbed at all the low-hanging fruit. I picked up the big piles of garbage. And that’s all I could handle then. No sense searching for splinters when the arm’s off.

And that’s still the approach I take – leave the weeding for Step 10. Right now let’s tend to the fallen tree.

This time around: Take care of the big chunks. Plenty of time to tease out the minutiae later.

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