Know what makes this step so difficult? There are so many occasions where I don’t want to do it. This step needs to be done daily in order to work. And I get all twisted the second I start taking my decision back.

Step Three: Made a decision to turn our will and our lives over to the care of God, as we understood Him.

This seems like it should be the easiest step of all twelve. Doesn’t it just makes sense to have God be in charge of my life? It’s God, for Christ’s sake. Or, short of God, at least not me? Quite honestly, the random advice from a total stranger would be better than my best laid plans.

It’s not about not drinking. It’s about not wanting to drink. On my own, I could handle the first part for a day or two, maybe even a week. But eventually, my want wins. It always has, and it always will. With this knowledge, the need to cling to my own will seems, well, dumb.

Another Analogy: I am not an owner. I lease. God is my landlord. And the great part is, there’s nothing to sign, ever. Everything is impermanent. Understanding that it’s all fleeting and returning and circular and holistic takes a great deal of the pressure off. Things can still be important; they just can no longer be controlled.

Knowing this, I can let go and exhale. The decision is made for me.

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