That’s it exactly, right? I was the player/manager of my world. The power hitter, the reliever, the defensive substitution. Only problem was that I struck out, gave up dingers, and had the ball bounce off my leg.

Step Two: Came to believe that a Power greater than ourselves could restore us to sanity.

Do I have enough faith to try? Because, quite honestly, if I don’t believe there is anything that can restore me to sanity, I need to start making changes immediately. Divorce. Quit work. Sell house. Rent cheap apartment. Throw away phone. Minimize the wave of destruction through time-honored isolation. At least have the decency to get out of other people’s lives, one way or the other.

I’ve heard it said that Step 1 is the only step you have to get correct 100%. And it’s true: every day I admit that I am powerless over alcohol.

On good days, I’m 100% in lock step with Step 2 as well. This step wants to know whether or not I have any hope. Can I be big enough to ask for help? There’s no point in standing on pride at this juncture. Because what am I really defending? The pride I feel in being able to do it alone? The shame that accompanies not being able to?

I may not be able to get it perfect, but I do need to reaffirm Step 2’s importance on a daily basis. There is hope, there is a solution. And it will work, if I work it.

Today: Grab some wood, bub. You’ll play when you’re ready. And needed.

One thought on “take me out, coach.

  1. “Those who do not recover are people who cannot or will not completely give themselves to this simple program…..Their chances ar eless than average.”

    Great Post! God Bless

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