The key for prayer working in my life today is not expecting an answer. Resolution will come as it always does: in time.

Step 11: Sought through prayer and meditation to improve our conscious contact with God as we understood Him, praying only for knowledge of His will for us and the power to carry that out.

My Higher Power has always been hands-off. The second I start asking for concrete results, I might as well go consult a gypsy. When I want God to do something on my behalf, it doesn’t matter how nicely I ask. It’s going to fall on deaf ears, as it should.

In my drinking days, prayer was all about asking for forgiveness, with the promise of better behavior in the future. My interaction with God was of the barter variety: get me out of this and I’ll never do it again, promise.

I never realized I had nothing worth bartering with.

Here’s the key for me: His will is that I do the next right thing. I’ve already got the answer. I pray to God to confirm what his will is, even when it’s not mine. I can make a case, and argue strongly for my side, but none of these pleas get me any closer to peace.

For today: Know that he knows that I know that he knows. No more head games with God. Take what I want and leave the rest.

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