There shall be no break downs or play-by-plays of the amends I made. Suffice to say they went well, even better than expected. See, this isn’t these people’s first merry-go-round ride with me.
Step 9: Made direct amends to such people wherever possible, except when to do so would injure them or others.
The one amends I will discuss (but without detail) is to my wife. If ever a person had a reason to run for the hills, it’s this incredible woman. For years me and my alcoholism tormented this poor person far beyond what is allowed by the Geneva Convention.
She truly is my Chuck Yeager.
I have been unbelievably blessed to share my existence with someone who is loving, caring and understanding; everything that a person needs to be to be right-sized.
I have no doubt that without her, I would be one of those lost souls; a sad story that people talk about around the tables.
And even though I know that she knows, the amends still need to be said aloud. This makes it more real for me, a reminder of where I don’t want to live anymore – my head. The only thing up there is misshapen thoughts and warped beliefs.
Besides, my wife isn’t in my head. She’s in my heart. Always.
12 the hard way 