See what I did there with Steeley Dan?

I’m attempting a month of humility:
Humility simply requires a man to think of his abilities and his actions as no greater, and no lesser, than they really are. Real humility then mandates that a man knows and is completely honest with himself.

I’ve realized that whenever I work on being “right-sized”, I immediately assume I must start knocking myself down and spinning myself up. But haven’t I been constantly working on low self-esteem as the root of my fear? So, nurture that, right? At least, as well?

Side note: I’d prayed from the floor this morning. Ran a gratitude list through my head. Did 3 minutes of quiet, closed eyes breathing. And, thanks to technology, I’m scheduling a sit-down with God for 11:30. A take-away at last night’s meeting was, “It’s okay to talk, pray, or listen to, God more than once a day.” He won’t get mad.

End Goal: Humility. It’s not just for practice anymore. And humility is impossible when I’m constantly belittling myself. Not too cool, self.

A little math: letting go is different from ignoring. Or pretending. Both the latters require mental gymnastics that I couldn’t perform even if I stretched first. Scratch that – I could perform them, just horribly so. Coming to peace with something isn’t admitting defeat. And I’ll know it when I feel it.

Achievement: I believe I have a road map. And a daily “commune-ute” with my higher power!

And finally… See what I did there with “commune” and “commute”?

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